lady fingers

I have this ring that I never wear, except for today I felt like wearing something pretty to work
First female customer I had asked if I was engaged because my ring was so nice, but I quickly explained it was just some crappy ring I've had laying around for a good while
She was convinced it was more then just crappy, but actually something of worth
After I got off work, I was curious to go to a jewelry store in the mall to get it checked out
I went into Finks and asked them to take a look and they said it was so dirty they couldnt even tell the color of the main stone
When the man came back, he told me my ring was going for 625 dollar
I completely lost my words at that moment
a ring, I had laying around, that I thought was nothing special
ends up....
20 real diamonds, and a real pink (forget the name) stone in the center

All night I've been thinking about how I can sell it and pay my first rent with the money or even better, buy all my bedroom furniture and then some with it
Some how though, I caught myself all through the night just admiring it and noticing how I like the way it looks on my finger

A part of me wants to sell it, but the other part is just so intrigued with its beauty

everthings' cool as long as I'm getting skinny

I wish I was born with thicker skin
then when people turn on me, I wouldnt be so dissapointed


I officially just dont give a shit about anybody anymore

I wish I could eat Pho everyday

You have no idea.
Post Secret has been so lame lately, lately as in meaning the past year and half.
Some reason though, I wait till midnight Sunday morning so I can be one of the first to see the secrets :)

So last night I was wasted, but not like completely gone...but I managed to have an adventure downtown all by myself. Night started off at Megan's/Kevin's/Brent's/ whatever the fuck his name is apartment drinking. Somewhere around midnight we all walked to The Camel (which might I add fucking sucks now).
Long ass line.
5 dollars to get in just to dance to shitty ass music.
One of my coworkers was outside, so hopefully he didn't take in my drunkiness.
Some black British guy hit on me, then told me to "piss off" because he got inside and I didn't want to go with him.
Caro_ and I waited oustide....blah blah blah
Anyways, I ended up walking all the way back to Megan's apartment by myself in high heel boots, which was hell on the cobblestone alleyways, BUT I MADE IT!
Drank a few more beers then decided I needed to go home because I had to work at 10
I need to stop driving drunk, errrgh

Anyways, ate some blue potato chips when I got home =puking all this morning and not going to work :(
I don't even remember calling Kenya telling her I was sick
hahaaha

New York City in 8 days!

"I'll trade you pencils for sex"

I always thought I would miss my sisters a lot, but I miss Frankie far more then I could ever miss them ( no offense if any of you by chance read this).
Dont get me wrong, I do miss my sisters, but Frankie and I connected on such a different level.
First off, I met this kid online and we ended up becoming best friends within the first week of college for the two of us.
I honestly don't think I have a bad or sour memory of my good friend Frankie. If I was down or going fucking crazy (which he was lucky enough to see), he would snap me back into reality. I don't think I would have made it out alive second semester if I didn't have him there to help me.

I love this kid so much, I didn't kill him or even make him pay when he broke the window in the back of my car.

One thing that always made me upset with some of my sisters was the way they treated him. I don't know why they had such hateful feelings towards him, but he certainly doesn't deserve it. I know I used to yell at him a lot, but the kid is a goofball, BUT THE BEST GOOFBALL EVVVVVVEEERRR!

Happy Birthday Frankie, I love you and miss you!

grow up and blow away

It's been over 9 months since I cut over 11 inches of my hair off
and to this very day, I still feel super lost without my hair

Yeah, big deal....it's just hair
well that's what I thought at first, but my hair was ME
I used to put colorful highlights in each month to add some flare
I could wear it wavy (which is doesn't do anymore) or have it pin straight
getting ready in the morning took 5 minutes because all I had to do was put some curling mouse in it and go to class

I've realized ever since I cut all my hair off, I've started wearing a lot more makeup.
I can only assume it has to do with the fact I feel so unattractive with short hair. Since I feel this way on the inside, I guess I tried to cover the feelings up with makeup on the outside.

I feel slightly silly for writing about my hair, but its been bugging me so much
I just want my long long red hair back :(

Tiger Claw, circa 1989

This week

POSITIVES:
-payday on Friday
-Alex gets here tomorrow at midnight...so technically Friday
-got an A on my Psych Exam
-got a B on my History Exam
-got some super cute clothes this weekend, and today :)
-Erin gave me a free haircut, and some bangs!
-Erin Bresse is coming home this weekend
-I think Clay is in town?
-finally got a new screen name
-found the jacket I've been dying to own
-clean room is always a plus
-I got my laptop back with new LCD screen, keyboard, and wireless thingy mabober and ALL FOR FREEEE
-cigarettes are still cheap ( I dont know why this matters, they will always be cheap in Tobacco haven Virginia)

NEGATIVES:
-I didnt have any sales at work yesterday
-my dad has bitched at me every night over the fact that I have a 3.5 and not a 4.0, FUCK OFF DUDE
-LIVING AT HOME
-dad said he wont help me pay to go to Florida for Spring Break
-Delta chewed my laptop charger, yeah... the brand new one I just got
-my huge ass credit card bill just got bigger again, ooops
-my newer fish sucks in comparison to Gypsy
-this want to be city is too small for me, I need large buildings and a subway

there appears to be more positives this week
I will call it a good week then

I LOVE ALEX!

big river

James J. Bartman Jr.
March 16th, 1987- February 17, 2009

Kenneth McCoy Hart
July 1st,1918- February 16th,2009


You will never know how much you both will be missed
rest in peace.