I got four hail marys flying over my head

My hard work is paying off, even if it was hard to do
I wrote Dylan a long note to try to explain what went wrong and how I really felt about what we had, and lost
We decided it's best to take things slow, which is the best thing right now
I talked with his dad on the phone and also met with him to discuss my options for my treatment and I'm glad to start that
I'm still waiting for one thing though, and it's killing me
I've never prayed so hard before
Dylan is still scared that I'm going to hurt him again, especially when I return to Florida, but I lost him once because I was making terrible mistakes
I won't let it happen again
I don't want to lose the one I love for a second time

Good news
I got into the nursing program at Jacksonville University
I am still in shock, I wasn't expecting that at all
especially today!

I hope that tomorrow goes just as well
and the day after
and most importantly Thursday

please pray for me

mistakes become regrets

"Do not regret the things you do, because at one time what you did was what you wanted"
that was my senior quote, because at that time I had come to terms with all the mistakes I had made in just 18 short years
but one year later exactly, I'm throwing it all out the door

I always tell people you regret something if you did it more then once
and it's true
I relapsed with drugs again
I'm going to lose the one person that I love again because of my drug problems


It's just too much to handle sometimes
I feel like I'm 15 again with a crush that won't go away


Florida is so close I can almost smell it