fuck cancer

You were my first best friend in Virginia, and shortly we will lose you.
It baffles me how things like this can happen to such good people. Becca never deserved to come down with cancer. I always thought better her though, because she is such a fighter and so determined.
Today that changed though.
The doctors are stopping treatment and letting her "be comfortable from now on"
How can one be comfortable with death, especially a young 20 year old who is supposed to have years to live?

I honestly just don't know how to feel about anything anymore.
I'm losing my faith

floor plan to my heart

"look at me, I'm Jul1ee
classy, sassy, and now a blondie
wont go to bed till I have a clonopin
oh look I'm jeppin Julie"

to the tune of Sandra D
written by my room mate Caroline

I say 2 months
and I'll be institutionalized.

I don't know whats right and what's real anymore

How things have changed within the past two weeks
I'm going to keep this short and sweet and just list them off

. moved into my house
.within the next 21 days if we have a noise complaint we get evicted....sweet
. I'm very blonde
. Zack Harton
. a new amazing job, second job
. rent due tomorrow, erg
. money problems but nothing is new there

train wreck

This has been the weirdest week ever
EEEEEEEVVVVVEEEEEERRRRR

spayed

Baby Delta got fixed today
now she is laying next me restless and letting out such heart aching sighs
I really wish they would send animals home with painkillers
I mean, they only cut her abdomen open and took out her uterus...

I have never loved anything like I love my dog

I'm deleting facebook
I'm deleting myspace

I'm sick of people thinking that's what makes us friends
if I'm a friend, you'll keep in touch the old fashion way of a telephone call

blah.
dats all.