So school has resumed at Jacksonville University. I've been working extra hard so far to try to stay above C's, which is something I really need this year.Its amazing how much the summer really changed some people around here. Not saying that it is bad, its just interesting. Lately I've found myself very annoyed and angry towards this place because I feel a majority of the people are fake. Its as if they forgot what lies they told last year, and I caught them this year. Nothing to worry about though, I don't need to ponder on the situation.
I did it yet again, and I am going to blame it on this town.
I ended things with Dylan. I'm still not sure if it's because I just really need somebody here that I can see everyday, or if I'm being ridiculous and making rational decisions. Jacksonville is a very peculiar place that can make any person feel alone, or like they aren't apart of anything spectacular. When this happens to me I feel the need to attach to somebody that is here, and let go of the person that is the farthest away...... and I did latch onto somebody here.
Finally stopped seeing my psychologist here. She was cold and took way too many notes and I didnt feel like she was listening to me. So the search continues yet again, haha. I'm doing surprisingly well though. I havent taken my medicine in over 3 weeks and things are going somewhat smoothly so far. Still waiting for that one day though when I don't have to worry about taking medicine to make it through the day.
Overall.....
my minds been wandering
I've been having thoughts come and go relatively fast
weeks are going by even faster
I suppose this is how it happens the last year of being a teenager
